I've been messed up for quite a long time, that nearly beat me...
1. Blocked by someone with no reason , maybe there is, but i don't know, or i don't wanna know...whatever, the fact is that i was blocked, now u r free, i am free too! u r an idiot,not me! Why have u done this to me? jus cuz i talked too much? u were supposed to stop me and order me to leave u alone? why did u do such a damned thing? Have i ever done any harm to u? u r stupid to get a friend lost...weird!!! i am not an idiot, i found it immediately, i know everything, but i don't wanna tell it out! The one who think others r idiots is the most stupid guy in the world. Ok!Game's Over!
2. Conference has finished，sleeping is the only thing that i really need, tired, very tired,very very tired...Much better than last year when I gave a lecture as a tutor on the platform~well done! 300 rmb won't help a lot, but it's a label which marked my growing up! I cherish it...
3. Something about my ten years plan. Everything of women's life can be changed in their twenties! Exactly! That's why i get this plan. What i want? reputation and wealth! I've asked myself for many many times. I don't intend to pretend my desire for these things which sound really snobbish！That's ture, i admit it，so far in my age，i don't know what can i do without both of them，all other things r bullshits, which i have no time and no passion on！Here are the items:
a. Good time management--Live an enriched life..make full use of everyday，cuz time is used for enjoying,not for wasting！Remember it all the time! Do more things as possible as i can，eg. Never let the experiment in a certain stage last more than two weeks，if it happens,it must be stopped immediately，there must be something wrong, no matter the experiment itself or me. Write all things down in order to analyze in any time at any place，it mustn't be neglected or else u will pay a lot. Other things r more or less the same~~
b. Never indulge in any emotion with anyone--no matter how hard it will be！Be cool! I am the best without any provement by others. There is no need ever and never! I could never be myself, whomever i would be? Ridiculous! Laugh if i want to, Cry if i like to, that's the only way i choose for abreaction, has nothing to do with the real status in which i am. If i fall in love with u, u r lucky. Cuz I will never lose control, no one will let me lose as well. So don't worry, no disturbance i swear. We are independent individuals...I shall put it in my mind all the time. Past was the past,tomorrow is another day，don't look back, let's go forward~ Everything's supposed to be perfect!!! alright..
c. Keep silent,doesn't mean can't be smart! Keep fit,could be more pretty--Smart and Pretty are the two most important features for a woman! In retrospect, Camilla and Diana,which one u will choose? The smart one or the pretty one? If i can't be a woman who holds both characters, let me be the smart one,cuz a beautiful appearance never win a beautiful mind in a long last time..But please remember, be smart as well as pretty if it is possible~
d. Put all the things on the list,then tick it out one by one--Be neat,rigid,responsible and act like an adult! When i was in my teens, i was never blamed for being naive. But now, it won't happen again. Frustration along with self-suspicion spread everywhere if we can't keep clear! Stand up and fight, but be a man! Never complain and escape, cuz everything we do now is all for ourselves, no paid no gain, also no pain no gain! The blood of success...
e. Several things I must finish in 2 weeks--translate my boss' paper from Chinese into English, what tough work; Complete my experiments in this stage, still tough; write 2 reviews, not easy; make a ppt for journal introductions, dropped for a long time; draw up a collaboration agreement, in process; oh, i nearly forgot, prepare for Toefl. Will any time be left for something else, such as dinner, clubing，dating...I’ve no idea yet~ Just do it, the sooner i finish, the more i could think!
